New Years Reillusion 2

I went to church this weekend and, though it's been a while since I took part in a large scale, organized, religious event, I had a pretty good time. As it was on the 1st of the year, the pastor, Pastor Bob or Bill or something, made the entire sermon about resolutions and fitness and health (both spiritually and physically) and it got me thinking; it's time for me to revamp my New Year’s Resolutions and get them going again.

Over the years, I have been the eternal optimist in the morning and told myself that I am capable of all these miraculous changes and life-altering metamorphoses but somehow, at the end of the day, I land directly on my jumping off point. This year I have no idea where to begin; do I pick a habit to kick? Do I try and add something of benefit to my life? Do I change my outlook on a certain topic? I have no idea. I think the best thing for me to do this year is to keep an open mind and try and learn what and who it is I want to be so that I can unearth the elements of my life that need to be altered in order to achieve the end result of the person I want to become. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not all that upset with who I am right now, but I think we can always improve and the only way to do that is to be open and brutally honest with ourselves about the shortcomings we hold onto inadvertently and the insecurities we carry with us. I know that I have a lot of those and there are a million different ways to go about touching upon them and ironing them out of my daily life but I still don’t really know where to start. I think touching on one of them each day, or week, or even month (depending on their level of embeddedness in my lifestyle and core personality) and really exploring why I maintain that specific trait or characteristic will give me some insight into the workings of myself on an elemental level; thus letting me rebuild fundamentally, one thing at a time. This sounds like it may be a bit more work while at the same time a lot easier in the long run for me to make the significant life changes I need. Wow, thanks blog.



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