Tuesday, April 28, 2009

How things are (n't)

I was sitting at my desk today and I had a thought. It's the thought that makes its way into all of our minds at one point or another. It's a thought the makes even the most absent minded of people stop and think about what really matters in life. Death: It's the eternal fraternity of the inevitably demised. What happens when we die? Where do we go? Are "We" even "We" anymore and does it matter if that matters? The idea of endless time and our inability to render a foreseeable image of our life's inescapable impending culmination. This simple yet complex thought that ninja'd its way into my cerebellum, mixed with caffeine and a strong sense of moral unrest and social depreciation brought me to my senses. Life is short. We all die. We don't know what happens when we die. Why do things you don't LOVE while you are here, while having some sense of control over your response to the stimuli you have readily available to you in this life. Why let the ice cream melt in your hand? Why would we simply sit back and wait for the undoubted ending that is the only thing in this world that we cannot control. Is the fear of change such a damper to our motivation and desires that it has the ability to kennel us into unhappy versions of what we never wanted to be when we grew up? Is the desire to please and the fear of uncertainty something to let debilitate us as an individual? I think not. So go get what you want; go change what you can; don't let the fear of the unknown the defeatist attitude of those around you stamp out your ability to become someone you'll be proud to be on your death bed. I'm done sitting around waiting for life to change; I'm done wondering if things will get better when I don't have the initiative to get out and make MY life worth living. I'm 25 years old and I'm just waking up to the fact that death isn't something we should be afraid of, but rather a competitive finish line that makes you want to do your goddamn best at everything you can so that when you finish, you finish strong.